Springtime Tease


It’s actually here.

The last ice blizzard has passed, the birds are out singing their songs, and the temps are finally on the rise.  It’s over a month late according to the calendar, but Spring has officially arrived.  And my kids (and fellow parents!) couldn’t be more ecstatic.

Every year us Midwesterners get excited when March arrives.  We start hoping for green trees and bright flowers.  Some of us actually start to wear shorts when it gets close to 60 degrees (you would too if you were use to wearing parkas).  But just when we think Spring is here to stay, Winter steps right back in and says, “Sucker!”  It’s really quite rude, especially since Winter has already called dibs on half the year.  This annoying game goes on for a few months, until finally Winter takes a bow and allows Spring to take its rightful place in the seasons.  But I tell you, that journey… the path towards sunshine and roses is nothing less than a TEASE.

And sometimes I think life feels that way.  Things start looking up, pieces fall into place, you finally move forward and then BAM!  Roadblock.

You have to break into the savings account AGAIN.

You get the diagnosis.

You hear the news from a friend.

You lose the job.

You have another fight.

You get the note from the teacher…

You feel discouraged, like you’ll never get a break.  And sometimes you never do.  There’s always something pulling in the opposite direction of where you want to go, attempting to stop you from reaching your goal.  And in those moments it’s so easy to give up, admit you are stuck and believe that this will always be your reality.  It’s so very easy, my friend.  I know because I am there myself.

Let me give you a snapshot of the last 7 days.  There are occasions when I think my mommy-ing is on point.  I give all the hugs and tickle the tummies and play with my boys.  I keep them fed and alive and all is basically well.  But this was soooooo not one of those weeks.  I was a complete wreck.  Severely jet-lagged and sleep-deprived, I came home to a house full of sick people who needed me more than ever.  I had no time to recover or breathe, and the amount of crazy demands and constant noise just added to my overwhelm.  I lost my filter and soon became a yelling zombie.  I even heard my soon-to-be 2 year old imitating my exasperated sighs in the other room, which is awesome.  Up to this point I thought I was getting better at handling stress and the raw emotions that came with it.  But once again, my kids and husband got the brunt of my burn out and it made me mad at myself… which again was awesome.

I felt like I was doing some weird dance, with my shifting feet going in all directions.  It wasn’t even a two steps forward, one step backward kind of thing.  I was just trying to keep my balance, and my tango was one step forward, one step back.  I turned my gaze towards Jesus and asked Him honestly…  Where’s the progress and the process?  Where’s the victory and power?  Because looking around all I saw was the standstill and I wondered what He was doing and where He was.

Now that I’ve come out on the other side I can say I’ve survived the week, but I can also say hindsight is my friend.  And it may be yours too, Dear Reader.  Sometimes when we are in the thick of the chaos we forget to look up.  We forget to ask God to give us His eyes… eyes that see the whole picture instead of a small frame.  It’s so easy to do and I do it daily, but life lived from eternity’s perspective helps provide peace in the midst of the pandemonium.  You can have one heck of a week and still have a good life.  You can have a horrible day and still know you are beloved and blessed.  Both are possible.  You can have some Winter and some Spring.

Because even with the changing seasons and the changing emotions and circumstances we experience every day, our God remains faithfully the same.  He is the only thing in this world that will never let you down or fail to come through.  His love is steadfast and His grace is abundant, which means His future for you will be full of good intentions and fulfilled desires.  He doesn’t tease our hearts or send mixed signals.  God doesn’t dangle our dreams and wishes in front of our face and then turn His back on His children.  His character can’t allow Him to be anything other than who He is:  A great God with great passion for you!  His promises are always YES and AMEN, which means His Word is something that can be trusted.  And do you know what His Word says about you and the path you are on right now?

“For the mountains may depart and the hills be removed, but my steadfast love shall not depart from you, and my covenant of peace shall not be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.”  (Isaiah 54:10)

“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”  (Lamentations 3:22-23)

“… being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1:6)

These are good words, but they are even better promises.  God’s love for you is infinitely deep, which means the idea of Him leaving you is out of the question.  It’s not possible, even with our shifting feet and shaky emotions, nothing can separate us from the adoration of a loving Father.  And even when it seems like we aren’t moving and things are stagnant, we can know that our hearts are changing as we encounter and experience His compassion and care… which just so happens to be the BEST kind of progress there is.  😉

Honestly, I would be shocked if we got another snow storm in the month of May.  I’m like 99% sure it won’t happen.  But as I continue to experience the kind heart of God, I become more certain of His dependability and His devotion to you and to me.

Even on the rough days when I’m not confident in me, I am confident in Him…

And of all the things in this life, He will always be my One Sure Thing.  100%.